Updated: Apr 17, 2019
Last Blog post- 2nd June 2018.
Date I started writing this- 30 June.
Date completed- tbc.
Disclaimer- this blog does feature the F-bomb several times, politely disguised with the use of *%
I see myself as a 'to do list' person- I like to be busy, I thrive off being organised and making the most of my time. Though lately I have come to realise that being busy and making good use of time are actually two very different things. Some people claim to always be busy- I think I was maybe one of those people. But I have come to be aware that often I am busy not really getting much done. Busy procrastinating maybe, or just busying myself with this and that and putting off actual important stuff that needs to be done- actual priorities shall we say (my tax return jumps straight to mind here).
Maybe we can all be a little like this, right? And its all kinda relative- as one persons definition of busy may be busy socialising or shopping, another persons definition is busy working. For the purpose of this I guess I'm referring more to the busyness of using time productively to get things done that I need to, see people that I want to- kind of like good life organisation. Ha, I don't know if I am making much sense here!
This #blog post isn't about being busy or not busy, though actually I shouldn't definitively state that as I am not really sure what this blog post is about (hence the insightful title), and with my tendency to ramble it could literally go anywhere! I'm still not even really 100% sure what this whole #blogging thing is about if I'm honest, I quite like to read blogs, and when I get going I do like to #write. But whether what I write would be the definition of a blog I'm not really sure? It often feels more like a 'Dear Diary' kind of outlet to me- which I'm not sure if anyone else enjoys reading, but I guess can be almost #therapeutic to write.
As well as a task orientated person I'm one of those people (this is the bit where I'm hoping there are others out there who do this too and I'm not alone), who can have #ideas and a-ha moments literally anytime any place, and when this happens I have learnt over time to jot them down- whether that's in my phone or in a notebook by the side of my bed.
I never used to note them down, and I'm not saying all these ideas and thoughts are actually useful or #interesting, but often I would think oh I wish I could remember those words, or that phrase or whatever it is that came to mind late last night, and often they never came back to me, so I decided to jot them down. Nowadays, since writing them down I sometimes come across them in one of many note books or post it notes, or when looking back on my phone. They either make no sense, have been used, or I think oooh yes I remember that and I am glad I saved it to come back to.
I do it with blog titles, or things I think may make interesting blogs should I say. So scrolling back through my notes section of my phone here are some that I have noted down over the past few months (and apparently have never actually come to fruition) *rolls eyes*
- Taking photos in Shavasana
- Work life balance
- What kind of Yoga do you teach?
- Songs or Yoga playlists
- Vegan recipes
- Yoga teacher or anatomy teacher?
- Yoga and social media
- Yoga and the ego
- Yoga for 'everyone'
- Mental health
- Domestic violence (my story)
I made myself a task list (standard) where I said I was going to post a blog every Friday- maybe this was a bit too #optimistic! I guess I often put myself off because sometimes I look at a potential idea and think woah that is a blog title or topic that I could literally go on and on and on about. I know I have a tendency to read posts or articles and get a bit bored and zone out or stop reading sometimes if they are very long, so I don't want to write something like that. Sometimes I think hmm is that a subject that could open up a whole can of worms- which don't get me wrong are often the best ones, but I am also aware that the #intention of my blog, or what I do for work is to empower, help, make people feel good- so I certainly wouldn't want to offend or upset anyone.
Then I think hang on, I also see what I do and share as a HUGE practice in areas like #awareness, none judgement, #acceptance, so why I am so concerned about how what I write is perceived. Its like teaching a Yoga class- do I want every single student in that room to have the most wonderful #experience (physical/emotional/spiritual) possible- of course! But am I also aware that sometimes I won't be for everyone, for whatever reason (maybe nothing even to do with me), I won't resonate that day or with certain people- yes! So maybe I should accept that I write blogs as a #freedom of #expression.
If people don't like what I say but it opens up #communication or new thoughts about a topic- that is a #positive, and also its OK if not everyone agrees or likes my blogs, like its OK in life if we don't get on or see eye to eye with everyone- that's life!
I'm not at all saying I'm going to start writing stuff with absolutely no f*%ks to give- that is not me. I give f*%ks. Which interestingly leads me onto an audio book I have been listening too (you know cos as we've discovered above I'm waaaay too busy for regular reading of books lol). But actually this is where the blog could get a bit more interesting and #enlightening (I'm talking for a matter of sentences only potentially). The book is 'The Subtle Art of Not Giving a F*%k' by Mark Manson. As I type this I realise this could well be another blog post to tell you more about this book, but for now I will just give you the outline (and I also haven't finished it yet).
Its not about not giving a f*%k about anything, not caring and just cruising through life with indifference to everything and everyone around you- its quite the opposite. Its about giving a f*%k or more so saving them for what actually matters. Stop turning yourself inside out with worries and thoughts of anything and everything, but give your #attention (and your f*%ks) to the people and things that actually matter. It sounds easy, but its really about having #awareness and almost re training the ways in which we think, or have come accustomed to thinking, maybe by society, the people in our lives, or just through habit.
So basically, in a nutshell I guess I led on to this because I have a tendency to over think a lot- even about things such as what I should post as a blog, and the thing is I shouldn't so much. If this is an outlet for me, or a place to write down my #thoughts and #feelings on topics, which others may take something from, or not, then that's fine- there really doesn't need to be anything more about it.
If people like it, great, if they don't its OK and they can make the decision to not read it. Its just a blog- as long as I am not going out of my way to cause offence or upset which I never would intentionally, then in the grand scheme of things its just words and pictures on a page. Yes sometimes I would like my blog posts to be insightful, thought provoking and informative but also at times they are 100% going to be just ramblings on a page. Just like me as a human, they cant be everything to everyone, and that is OK! If one person reads something I say and it means something to them- ace! If nobody does, that is fine too. If I am being #truthful, #authentic and #real through my posts, but more importantly actually living my life this way also, then that is what counts.
I'm sat thinking where I go with this now, so for me that's a sign that I've ran out of juice with it, though within this I have found another blog topic. So, by the time I have got round to listening to the rest of the audio book, then gone back and listened to parts again and then put fingertips to keyboard, you are looking at reading that blog at some point early 2019 ha!
In the meantime I am pretty sure I will come back to one of the aforementioned topics, or maybe just more ramblings. I also think I should probably go back to the top of the page and write a little note about the over use of the F word within this blog. I'm sure my mum won't be too happy if she reads it- but then again- f*%ks I give! (I'm joking, I have upmost respect for my wonderful mother- and mum if you are reading this I am sorry but I did use *% and not the full word).
Until next time, enjoy the sunshine...